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[itookashot]

You should talk to Nadine in Free Cities or Claire in Solvunn, they might be able to meet up with you in Nocwich for tests. They're both medics, not magical healers. It sounds like something medical is going on with you, mate. Might as well ask.

Well congrats you're no longer in an army, you can just hang out and learn what you want. Thorne's sort of a trash place but there's good people there in the Summoned.

Emotions aren't logical, they're the opposite. Best to just shrug and accept it. It'll go away eventually, it's normal to linger on feelings until you naturally move on.

[sleepfan]

There is nothing preventing a magical healer from being a medic. I am one, the world I am from is simply rather unadvanced. I have spoken with Nadine and have a great deal of respect for what she has accomplished; I would not waste her time with a problem that was not dire.

I know. I am pleased about that. Why do you say that Thorne is a trash place? Is it worse than the Free Cities or Solvunn? There are good people in all of the nations and amongst Summoned and non-Summoned alike, I imagine. I cannot think of a group of people that does not contain both good and evil people.

Yes, I will ignore them and they will go away.

[itookashot]

Why don't you let her decide if it's worth her time? If you respect her so much.

It's a trash place because they started this whole thing and then jailed the Summoned, and they're trying to keep you lot caught like a bird in a gilded cage. If you aren't afraid of Thorne's royalty, you haven't been there long enough. You're all one bad temper away from going into the dungeons again, and no one's powers work down there, they can block them.

The Free Cities and Solvunn aren't good either, but we have a lot more freedom. Physically, which is important to me, I hate staying still. Solvunn's got too much religion and farmland. Cadens isn't so bad.

No I said ACCEPT THEM and then they'll eventually go away.

[sleepfan]

[The man has a point.]

Do you think this would interest her or do you believe she would only be concerned about my wellbeing?

I am more annoyed than frightened. I am not surprised the dungeons can restrict our abilities: My nation has magically restricted holding cells and that is one of the first things any nation would do when Summoning from a security perspective. Summoning something or someone you can't control would be a security risk.

I am glad that you have some freedom of movement, though I worry it may be false freedom. At least Thorne is open about being run by authoritarians. I would prefer that to deception or lies. Be careful.

Yes, that is what I said. I will do nothing and they will go away. I have research to do instead.

[Ignoring and disassociating from his feelings is the same thing as accepting them, isn't it?]

[itookashot]

With Nadine, it'd probably be both. She's curious, she likes knowing things. If it turns out something of interest, she'll be able to help other people too. If it turns out not to be a big deal, whatever, at least you'll both know.

[ Jesper knows Nadine extremely well, they're Cadens family. ]

Eh, even if it's false, it's still freedom. They could come down on us at any time, but that's true of all three. We still get to live every day until that doing whatever we want. Also, I'm pretty hard to catch. Something they don't know.

I'm never careful but it's sweet you're concerned. I bet you are very cute. I should add you to my book.

[itookashot]

Inej is the best spy anyone could ever meet. I've known her for years and she still gets the drop on me, and she shouldn't be able to, considering I can track her clothing, but she somehow manages! You couldn't get a better teacher.

So you and Wille made up, I'm assuming? Told you he's forgiving.

Well maybe we can stick around the Horizon after the party and I can show you what sex is like on the psychic plane. Spoiler alert: It's amazing.

[sleepfan]

If you believe she would be curious, I will consult her.

I do enjoy being able to do as I please. I am fortunate that what I wish to do is spend my time in libraries and bookshops. Thorne does not mind that I spend my time studying and sleeping. I may feel differently when the resources available to me here stop being sufficient.

[Linhardt isn't going to restrict himself to only learning what Thorne wants him to learn. There is always more, and their information restrictions are foolish. Stupid.]

I retract my worry. If you are going to be not careful, I hope it is in a way that you find enjoyable.

I do not know if 'cute' is the adjective I would use to describe myself. I am 177 centimeters tall and less muscular than Claude and Sylvain. I have dark green hair - slightly darker than a pine tree - and blue eyes that lean purple similar to a blooming cornflower if you have those in your world. My skin is approximately the same shade as Sylvain's. My Arcana sign is that of the High Priestess.

If there is any other information you would like, you may ask.

[It doesn't matter that Linhardt is not interested in the looks or sexual inclinations of the Summoned. Jesper is and that is good enough reason to offer him the information. Linhardt believes that everybody has the right to indulge their interests, whether he shares them or not, and Jesper has been helpful.

He also doesn't believe in topics being 'inappropriate'.]

[everybodysterrible]

Yeah, he gets why I do the shit I do. And I get why it's fucked up for him to deal with.

What? Sex in a world where reality can bend to your whims is amazing, color be surprised!

P.S. Oh yeah, your cranky inventor friend wants half up front.
P.P.S. Mat should also be there, it might be nice if we got to know each other with my clothes on.

[itookashot]

Yeah just tell her the deal. The amount of time you sleep, how you feel, if it gets in the way of your general life, etc. She and Claire the doctor in Solvunn do it because they like medicine, of course they'd be interested.

I almost exclusively do what is enjoyable. What's the point of life if it isn't fun?

I'll add you, although if we get a chance to meet in person, that will make it easier to make sure my entry is accurate. Also, do you like men, women, no one, anyone?

[sleepfan]

Just because they like medicine does not mean my particular situation would interest them. Healers have a variety of reasons for practicing and not all of us practice out of intellectual curiosity. Some do so because they like people and want to help them. I also knew at least one healer that preferred treating animals to people. I will ask them, however.

You have the correct philosophy towards life. I do not see the point of a life lived for duty if it means that someone is forced to be devoid of joy. Joy and pleasure is its own end; it does not need to be justified.

Accuracy is important.

I do not care about the sex of my lovers - men and women are equally enjoyable.

[itookashot]

He gets not everything's black and white. I'm glad you've become friends, you could both use more good sort in your life.

I know! Imagine that.

Fine, Wylan works at the lab, I'll give him the money. I knew he'd be able to figure it out. Viktor's against weapons but I figured a slingshot would be tolerable for him.

Well, no promises, clothes do have a habit of falling off us.

[itookashot]

I'm glad to find someone who agrees with my life philosophy. Want to make out some time?

[everybodysterrible]

A lot of my clothes falling off around Mat last time is I just- have a thing about musicians.

This is still very fucking weird for me.

[sleepfan]

Yes. This situation is very stressful and I need something less so.

[And since Jesper is a stranger and does not live in Thorne, he is safer to be intimate with.]

[itookashot]

Great! If you spot me in Nocwich or the Horizon come say hi. I'm tall, dark hair, gray eyes, very attractive, usually wearing a bright green long coat and have guns. I stand out.

[itookashot]

Mat's also hot in general. Although I get the musician thing. We've been together for a year and a half and he still gets my heart racing every time.

What, having casual sex partners you feel comfortable with? It can be weird at first.

[everybodysterrible]

He's definitely that. I think you might have a little bias though, smitten and all that you are.

Talking about it at all? Definitely talking about it with his boyfriend. What I did with Press I didn't share with my friends. Because they would correctly point out I should do things with someone less terrifying. And my world is pretty big on the whole monogamous possessiveness bullshit. And prudish 'don't talk about it' bullshit.

I like this better, I still just need to get used to it. Where the boundaries are, shit like that.

[itookashot]

Monogamy is a thing where I'm from too, and I even tried it with someone, before coming here. It worked and all, I'm not a cheater, but I think this is more me. It's really about communication, making sure everyone gets it. Mat and I are good at that, with each other and with other people. I don't think the heart has a limited amount of space, it's endless to me. The way I care about people is infinite.

Eh, we don't worry much about boundaries. We always know where each other stand. Sometimes boundaries about other people become a thing, such as Kaz being an unrelenting dick to him, but it's not because he has to share. I love the man, but he is a dick to most people.

[sleepfan]

Would we be kicked out if we engaged in the hot springs? The water feels nice.

[everybodysterrible]

You've also been here longer than me and there's definitely something in the waters we wash up from that makes everyone sorta needlessly horny. I do agree that limiting yourself to caring about just one person over everyone else is- well, fucking stupid.

I'm not worried about your boundaries, I'm worried about mine. I mean- don't get me wrong, if I thought you had boundaries I'd worry about them but so far I haven't found any. I want to have fun, enjoy myself, and make a life worth having. I just don't know what that looks like, which is fucking scary.

I've met Kaz now, he tried to convince me he wasn't a fighter after berating a monster into leaving. He sure is something.

[itookashot]

No idea if we would, but we should definitely try and find out.

[itookashot]

It's okay if that's what someone wants. Wilhelm for example would probably prefer monogamy if he fell in love, I know him very well, so everyone's different. The guy I was monogamous with is here now. We're working on being okay with each other. He's a good sort, Wylan, you might've seen him around the inn.

Oh yeah, that makes sense. I want to respect your boundaries and encourage you to learn what they are, love. It is scary to open yourself up like this to so many people, but the rewards really are worth it. Finding a place you belong can be everything.

Ha! That's him alright. He's the head of our gang, the entire city's terrified of him.

[sleepfan]

If we get caught, it's your fault.

[everybodysterrible]

I'm the wrong person to figure out what is and isn't right about romance.

Which is why spending the night after my party exploring the ins and outs of sex on he Horizon is on the table. It's a lot easier to try new things when I trust the guy I'm with and a lot less terrified then I would be with someone new. I'll try to find new people later.

September, after the rifts, in the middle of clean up and curios | Text

[blackeyedprince]

Are you alright? I hope you are. It was madness here. There are some many people in infirmaries.

[Kell can't bring himself to say that both Rhy and Kyle got hurt...]

Will you be in Nocwich this month?

[Even less that he was worried about Jesper...or that he misses him. It's not like they're anything...]