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[parce]

Oh, you're going to make my already enormous ego so much bigger.

( he almost slurs the words, sounding sated and satisfied. so, when jesper tells him not to move, he hums his affirmative because it's not like he wants to go anywhere just yet either.

he drops his head down against jesper's shoulder and sighs. )

I had no idea I was being fantasized about.

[ordinar]

Jes?

Can I ask you something?

[blackeyedprince]

[It is not easy for Kell to say it. What Jesper does not and cannot know, is how truly hard it really is for him. How confusing, how utterly terrifying it is not only to think but to say those words out loud. How much time Kell spent specifically, intentionally not thinking about them. Trying to avoid defining what he feels, because he does not understand it one bit, and staring at something he does not understand is like staring into his own inner darkness. He does not know what to expect, it frightens him, and he's all too used to running away from things he fears. Yet, finally, miraculously, laboriously, the burning need to say the words won.

Most often, Kell's recklessness stems not from courage or conviction, but from a wish to skip over the paralyzing fear of looking at himself and not recognizing what he sees. There are so few people that make him look. That take time, have patience, to hold his hand as he does. Rhy was always the first to succeed in it.
Now Jesper has his own way of doing it.

Kell doesn't need much encouragement. He rolls to his back easily. Eager to feel the weight of Jesper's body on him. Relaxed and content by the promise, and the anticipation of more to come.]

Oh yes, Jesper. I want to feel you.

[Breathless and still dizzy from the kiss, he shivers. All the sweet promises already lighting his blood on fire. Saints, it's unbearable how much he wants this. They're only kissing, it has no right to feel this good. But it's always been Jesper's special talent to be able to reduce Kell to a trembling mess solely with his words. A strategically placed kiss, a caress, those work too. They do not detract from the power his words have.]

Mhhhm, I know you will. You always do.

[itookashot]

Always, pigeon, what's up?

[itookashot]

It's only fair since you're doing the same for me.

( As if either of them needs more ego! But why not? They're having sex, they can do whatever they want. He runs his fingers through Nikolai's sweaty hair when he drops his head down, kissing his cheek. He sneaks his other hand down and playfully squeezes that perfect ass because he isn't done touching Nikolai as much as he can. He does reluctantly unwind his long legs from around Nikolai as silent permission for him to pull out if he wants to, he did go a bit boneless there. He likes the embrace though, the closeness.)

You're lying or oblivious. ( He laughs.) I wasn't subtle. As if I could ever resist a handsome man, let alone one that has a royal background so we could play out the good king slash bad boy fantasy.

( That is why he brought up the romance book idea in the first place. Being defiled by a king is flattering and sexy.)

It's not bothersome I find your title hot, is it? I assure you, the rest of you is also hot.

[ordinar]

So like

If you don't know if someone is into guys or not, how do you

How do you find out?

[itookashot]

Ooooooooo does the pigeon have a crush?

Well you can 1. Ask them if they like men.
2. Hint around if they have any exes that would give away gender.
3. Flirt a whole lot and see if they're into it.
4. Mention that you like men and see how they react.

I seem to remember I couldn't figure out if you liked men or not so I had to be direct at a point. And I'm usually amazing at sniffing it out.

[ordinar]

UGH.

I don't think I even know how to flirt.

I don't want to make things weird if he isn't. I think his world is way more old-fashioned than mine, and those places can be weird about this sort of thing.

[He conspicuously leaves Jesper's question unanswered.]

December Gift Delivery

[philancer]

[ It takes some sneaking, but Jesper will come back to his inn room one afternoon mid-December to find a small wrapped tin of loose-leaf tea that Sylvain had put together, a close mimicry of a blend from back home known simply as Fourspice Blend. He knows Jesper likes a lot of bold flavors so he hopes this one might be to his taste. At the very least, it's unique to anything he's found in the Free Cities so far, so it'll be a novelty, at least.

Along with the tin is a small envelope holding a business card for one of the nicer inns in Aquila. On the back of it, in Sylvain's careful handwriting, is a note explaining it. ]

Wasn't sure when you'd be free, but whenever you'd like to go, I've got a standing reservation for two for the length of a weekend, to do whatever you'd like. Just let me know when you'd like to go. Told you I'd make sure you took a break now and then.

Love, Sylvain.

[itookashot]

You flirt well with me! But we know each other.

Ehhhh you don't know that. Technically my world is old-fashioned compared to yours and sexuality is not a real problem for us. Outside of one area.

There's nothing wrong with being gay so you shouldn't hide that from him regardless.

[itookashot]

[ Jesper loves that they can be so very naughty and sweet in equal measures. He's always been someone who enjoys variety in the bedroom and Saints know the two of them have quite the variety of what they do together. He thinks it's important in this moment for Kell to feel loved, that their confessions to each other be underlined as important as they should be. Every touch between them, every kiss or soft sound, will have meaning.

Jesper's glad they already got rid of their shoes and dressed down so they could snuggle comfortably, since that means there are less layers to worry about. Not that he would mind peeling more things off of Kell. They've shared a lot with each other and Kell really let himself be emotionally vulnerable, and Jesper wants to reward him for it, so he knows he can always come here. He kisses his neck, sucking gently, putting a knee between Kell's legs to encourage them to spread and sit up slightly so he can help take Kell's shirt off. His nimble fingers make short work of that and then down to his pants to undo them.

Jesper brushes his mouth over Kell's body, familiarity with it only making sex easier because he knows what he likes. He slides his hand underneath Kell's clothing so he can touch him, rubbing the palm of his hand down against him with solid friction. Trace along his cock with teasing fingers, teasing his balls as his mouth covers one of his nipples. ]

I love touching you. [ He knows how much Kell likes to hear him talk, which is good as Jesper loves to talk. ] The only thing better than touching you is tasting you. Your pretty skin is so sweet. [ He licks around a nipple. ]

Do you want my mouth on you, sweetheart? [ He whispers into his stomach as he moves down. ] Is that what you need?

[ordinar]

Exactly. You make it easy.

I know there's nothing wrong with it. I'm not ashamed or anything, it's just

It's still pretty new to me. Being gay and being out. I don't really know how to talk about it. I'm not gonna be like...hey, don't bother me, I need to go to the Horizon so I can make out with Jesper. He's a cute boy, by the way.

[itookashot]

More like, sometimes I hook up with this gorgeous sexy brilliant criminal named Jesper, while I adore him and we're best friends, I'm also very open to hooking up with other people if you catch my drift.

I remember when Wy tried to gauge my interest in men. We were doing a job and I joked about flirting with girls and he asked me 'just girls?' Adorable.

All jokes aside, maybe just relax and see if it comes up naturally. You can always ask him if he has anyone to go back to. That'd figure out interest and also availability.

[blackeyedprince]

[There are different needs that exist within him simultaneously. Kell does not switch between cruel and tender, between the desire to give and receive pleasure. It's all there all the time. The beautiful thing, one of its myriad gifts, in having sex with Jesper, or simply being in his company, is that he doesn't have to pick one and shun the rest. He can be all, whole in his complicated, scarred messiness. Show him all, fully let him in. So he does.

Kell lets Jesper guide him up, take his shirt off, spread his legs to give Jesper better access to his body, freely responding to all this wonderful attention with moans and whimpers, his breath quickening, his pulse already racing. And if there's one more thing making it all even better, it's hearing Jesper talk. Kell loves it when Jesper tells him what he's going to do to him and how much they're both going to enjoy it. That Kell is able to answer is evidence to how far they have gone from that first night on the ship. And that - when it's his turn - Kell is able to tell Jesper what he wants to do to him too. Still not easy, but possible. Nothing short of a miracle knowing where they started.]

I love it when you touch me.

[Jesper knows exactly how to touch him for Kell to slowly, but completely unravel, melt into his hands. Hot breath on Kell's bare skin, decisive slide of his hand down Kell's body, both pulling his attention immediately to the sensation and keeping it there. Jesper's word flashing heat right through him in anticipation of promised pleasure.]

Yes, a-ah, Jesper. [Whatever smart response Kell had prepared is reduced to a string of breathless pleas.] I want it, I need it. Your sweet lips, your tongue, I want to feel them on me.

[parce]

It's not bothersome.

( nikolai takes a slow breath and then rolls off of jesper and onto his side, settling down and stretching but making no further moves to leave.

he tucks an arm underneath his head and gets a little more comfortable. )

I haven't told many people about it outside of those that already know. I don't want them to treat me differently right off. So, Sturmhond rides again and all that.

[ordinar]

[Fuck. Somehow in all his overthinking, he hadn't even considered that.]

He's a king in his world. Like I said, they're old school so... There's a good chance that he's already got someone lined up to marry. But ig there's also a good chance it's all for politics, not love.

Not that I want to marry him or anything.

You and Wylan are so cute, it's not fair. Let me borrow your charm for a couple days.

[itookashot]

You are plenty charming on your own, Wille, don't be so hard on yourself. You wouldn't want to pretend you're someone you're not anyway. You're a lovely person and anyone would be lucky to be with you.

And don't let anyone, including yourself, convince you otherwise.

Who is this guy?

[ordinar]

Thanks, Jes.

[He believes in Jesper, so if Jesper believes in him, then...]

His name's Kelson. He hasn't been here long. Do you know him?

[itookashot]

Always, pigeon.

[ Jesper always means it with all of his heart. ]

Nope, haven't met him yet. If I do I'll flirt a little and see if I can get a read on him. Don't worry, it'll only be flirting.

[itookashot]

( Jesper immediately turns on his side to mirror Nikolai, staying close, reaching out to run his hand along the line of Nikolai's body. He never stops touching when he has permission to. Over his other arm, along his hip, down to his thigh and then back up again. A gentle but forward caress.)

Don't worry, having sex with Sturmhond the sky pirate is also very hot.

( It's not as forbidden as a royal having sex with a criminal, it makes them both criminals, but it's still them so it's hot. Those are all just fun titles anyway. Jesper's mostly pretending a world where he still is a gang member, not a merchant who plays by the rules. (So boring.))

I wanted to join your crew so much. Not so much I'd leave the Dregs, but to have one sky adventure would be great.

( The heist he did with Nikolai and Zoya was on the ground so less fun, although no less important. For Wylan, he only did it because they said it would help Inej, but Jesper just heard 'heist' and was fully in. As per usual.)

You're not actually telling people your name is Sturmhond are you?

[itookashot]

That's my good, sweet Kell.

[ When Kell lets him take off the shirt, lifts up so he can strip him more, his body open and eager to let Jesper have control right now. It does make him good and sweet, and he's always known from the start that Kell holds opposites in himself when it comes to sex. He knew from their first time when he unlocked something dark in the man, only leading to his confusion at the time, but now he's not afraid of either. This is the same Kell who will probably fuck him like an animal later. ]

But for right this instant, he deserves to be treasured and gently handled, after what he's been through.

[ Jesper pulls the rest of Kell's clothes off and puts them to the side, able to reach out and get the lubricant from his jacket easily, setting it down. He takes a moment to look at Kell naked and spread out underneath him. ]

So beautiful. So vulnerable. But you trust me, don't you, love? You know I'll never be anything but good to you.

[ That trust is integral to why this works between them. They were strangers in the start but Jesper knew instinctively that Kell was someone he could drop his guard with. There was always something about him that felt vulnerable on the inside, fragmented, ready to be pieced together without knowing how. He lifts one of Kell's legs up onto his shoulder to give him more room between his legs.

Since this is the mood they're in more right then, Jesper takes his time pulling Kell apart. He nuzzles his balls, sucks on them gently, kisses all along the shaft with licks around him, playing for longer than Kell probably wants before he puts his mouth finally on the head. Even then though he takes good long licks along the slide and the underside, tantalizing but not fully taking him until he can't bear to resist. Kell's done this enough times to know that Jesper always gives in eventually, sometimes it's a patience game, and he enjoys this too much.

When he finally takes him in, it's to the root, not teasing anymore with dipping his head lower with time, just surrounding Kell all at once with his mouth, letting him touch his throat at the end. When he has him hot and hard between his lips, he opens the lube one-handed and pushes one finger in him at the same time. ]

[ordinar]

I'm not worried.

I don't even really know what I want this to be yet. I mean, it would be nice to...have someone. But I just want to see how things go.

[In short, Kelson is pretty and he looks nice to kiss, and that's a good enough reason to try.]

[parce]

No, I've told them my real name but no one knows me from anyone else. So, I can be a Lantsov and still be a pilot of a ship that only exists in my Horizon.

( right now, at least. )

Thorne is already a bit of a shady place so I'd rather them not know that I'm some kind of royal for any reason. I don't want to be looked at any closer than they already are.

[blackeyedprince]

[Trust is essential to what they have. Without trust, Jesper would have never seen the dark part of Kell, and he accepts that one a lot more, than he does his helpless, needy part. Which is the one that Jesper experience now, when he treats Kell with such veneration.

Being the pretty body on display soaking admiration and praise. Indulged and pampered, like some exotic creature deserving its special treatment. A vessel for pleasure as much as the source of it. All this stands in direct contrast to the person Kell usually considers himself to be. In more contrast to what he lets other people see. He allows it for Jesper. Not only allows, he actively wants him to see. Like that time in Jesper's Horizon domain when Jesper made a mirror on the ceiling showing Kell how beautiful they look together, and Kell who never thought about himself as pretty - handsome, interesting, compelling, maybe, but not beautiful - stared at their bodies moving together in awe; the image etched into his memory forever. He wants Jesper to see what he showed him then. To make Jesper look at him with the same hunger, he did then. Like he looks at him now, after he undressed Kell completely.]

Yes, [Kell agrees, eyes half-closed, lips curled in a lazy smile, spreading his legs wider, shifting his body to make it even more enticing.] and all of it for you to play with.

[He reaches down to caress Jesper's cheek, but lets his hand fall onto the bed the moment Jesper lifts his leg over his shoulder.]

I know and I trust you.

[All else, if there even was anything left, gets drowned by the stream of moans that spill out of Kell's lips once Jesper starts. He takes his sweet, sweet time with Kell. Thread by thread winding him up, hot and hard, all but begging for a release, and yet enjoying every second of delay. It's not the mindless madness they sometime indulge in, but a slow and deliberate process of increasing the pressure. Kell enjoys every second of it. There can only be one more thing that would made it feel even better. One thing he hungers for even more than Jesper's mouth on his cock.

When Jesper finally swallows him whole all the way down to the hilt, Kell almost cries out. It's like with the mirror, but this time Kell wants to see. He lifts his head to look. The sight of Jesper's head buried between his thighs renders Kell speechless. But what breaks it for him is feeling that single finger slip in so effortlessly. Selfish and greedy, Kell already wants more. It's only because of the trust they share that Kell is able to ask for it.]

I want you in me, Jesper. [Every word of his half plea, half demand, leaves Kell's lips followed by a moan or stretched into one.] I want you to make love to me slowly. I want to feel every inch of you.

[itookashot]

He's over in Thorne?