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[itookashot]

You have to describe the knife. She has a lot of them, they all mean a lot to her.

I'm not destroying anything that was hers but I'll give it back to you.

[ushiri]

The blade is no more than five inches. Carved from black bone. The handle is wrapped in leather.

If you can sense power, it will feel like malice. The bone is cursed.

I can meet you on the next Nocwich weekend.

[itookashot]

I know that one. It was special to her, but I think she'd want you to have it back. I'll bring it to Nocwich.

[ushiri]

Thank you.

I'll see you at the teahouse.

[itookashot]

You can be greedy later, sweetheart. As if I'll be done with you any time soon.

( No, he's going to need to eventually take his time with Nikolai, but he never manages to be slow in the start. He gets too caught up in passion and damned if this man isn't worth every ounce of it. Jesper smirks and hands him the lubricant, leaning up to kiss him again, needy for those soft lips of his, before resting back.)

Back. I really want to see that face of yours.

( It's so pretty, he can hardly be blamed. He spreads his legs in obvious invitation, grabbing a pillow to put under his back to prop his body up better for Nikolai to use.)

You can be fast, I like a little burn.

( Also Nikolai will find that Jesper is one of the easiest people in the world to open up because of his lack of tension. He's so comfortable with sex that he relaxes right away.)

[parce]

( on his back and a little burn. all things that jesper can easily remember. he nods his head, taking the lubricant and putting a good amount in his palm. )

Hopefully it's not too cold.

( and once he's slicked up is fingers and jesper's on his back, he presses his thumb against the other man, finding him easy to open up. which just means he adds a second finger quickly to give jesper a little stretch now. )

[itookashot]

I don't know if there was a line I wouldn't cross to get all of you back. I crossed all the ones that were in front of me.

[ So he didn't know what was left after that. More killing? More torture? He was already in that state of mind. Jesper was willing to kill even after he promised he wouldn't, after they told that bandit mother they'd set her son free if she told them everything. He was ready to kill her and him, without a second thought, without a blink of an eye. It was only Nadine's insistence that stopped him, and he still looked to Dean, knowing if he told him to do it, he would regardless. There was no moral high ground left for him. ]

I was desperate. We were close to a collective meltdown. I don't know what would have happened if we were too late.

[ Jesper doesn't think he could come back from it. He would either break or stop feeling at all. Become a shell of a person. They were so close to losing them. He knows that the people in the Pit went through a lot, but so did people on the outside. The constant state of helplessness and fear went both ways. Almost all of his lovers were taken, he was unstable to say the least.

This is Jesper and so is his usual smiling relaxed self. He lives to pretend to be shallow, but he's anything but. He's fine letting Kell see that now. He keeps his truest self under the mask of cheerful indifference and he looks at Kell, cupping his cheek affectionately. His pretty redhead, all soft skin and darkness underneath. He shakes his head, leaning over him, kissing him gently. ]

I'm not perfect, and I wouldn't want to be. I'm very flawed, Kell. And I'm okay with you knowing that.

[ Which is a sign of real intimacy. Letting them see each other without any masks. Jesper is touching him with sincere affection, not their wild state of sexual need. It is all very sweet and he's glad for it. He thinks Kell is very sweet, underneath his intensity, and he didn't know he was until Jesper, in many ways. He looks into Kell's mismatched eyes and smiles. ]

I love you. I want you to know that too.

so I did actually reply to this and DW ate it lol so I had marked it replied to SORRY

[itookashot]

Yeah, together. I'm a big team player, you know.

[ Just seeing Jesper around the Crows should make it obvious, but also the way he works with everyone in the Inn, with her and Sam in the welcoming committee. Jesper doesn't do things solo much of the time, he's always looking for other people to work with. It's probably because he grew up utterly alone and only found companionship when he came to Ketterdam and was brought into the Dregs. He adores Hilda and they already are working so well together with the welcoming committee and as friends. Why not throw another venture? ]

I know Cadens is military and boring, but what if we could brighten it up a bit? My mother's people were extremely colorful, and they were also city folk, pragmatic, just also bright.

[ It explains why Jesper favors so much color. He's never in neutral colors, outside of when he has to do some specific work or on the road. He stands out like a permanent peacock on purpose, but he took it from her and the Zemeni. He grins at her. ]

I think we can do it, why not? We're both brilliant people with great taste.

[itookashot]

It's fine, I'm very hot.

( Jesper grins since that could go two ways, but it's actually quite true once Nikolai gets his hands on him. He runs very hot, it might be the constant energy buzzing under his skin. And his promise is true, he relaxes almost instantly underneath Nikolai's fingers, far more welcoming than most. He isn't afraid of any intrusion and his body knows that, it wants what Nikolai has to offer.

He still feels it even if it's easy, sighing at the first touch of him, humming in appreciation when Nikolai opens him to two fingers. Gray eyes stay fixed on Nikolai's face, enjoying looking at him, seeing the want in his gaze. He reaches out to touch, brushing his long fingers against Nikolai's plump lips. He taps them on Nikolai's mouth as if to ask for him to open and if he allows it, puts two of them into his mouth to suck on.)

Saints, next time I really want you to fuck my mouth. Like I want my throat to be hoarse from it.

[parce]

You need to stop saying things like that when I'm already committed to fucking you in another way.

( because he can be a selfish man and he finds himself wanting to do both now. but, he's got some fingers inside of jesper's ass now so he's not going to stop.

he does, however, lean down and lick at jesper's hole once before he gets a hand around his cock so he can press the head to jesper's ass. )

Good? Ready?

[itookashot]

( Jesper laughs.)

We can circle back around to it, sweetheart.

( Jesper is genuinely surprised when he licks at him like that, it's not a new thing, just a sudden one, but it definitely sends a little thrill up his spine. Followed by Nikolai finally positioning and Jesper gets excited instead of tense, this is what he wants, what he needs. Being filled or filling someone else, either way, it's what he craves. Of all his vices, this is the best.

He lifts a leg to hook around Nikolai's waist, opening himself up even more to make it easy for him to slide in. And so Jesper can be his needy and demanding self when he wants him to move. Anticipation is high.)

Very much ready, your highness. Please for the love of everything get inside of me.

it's okay!!

[theidlemaiden]

[ Hilda has no doubt that he is - the entire Sarstina renovation has been a testament to that. That doesn't change the fact that it still surprises her that he would want to do things with her, let alone what sounds suspiciously like a business venture if it ever got to that point. Taking things seriously is something she's never been known to wear well. Her penchant for flightiness and airheaded ways don't align themselves well to that sort of thing. But they've already come this far. And designs and creation don't have to mean a business or anything serious - right?

In fact brightening up a drab, neutral city is the complete opposite of that. And if she were being honest, she missed seeing colour outside of the stage. Jesper's idea combined with his infectious smile is enough to convince her. ]

Why not then?

[ She reaches across the table, grasping his hands in hers. ]

And I think we'd have a host of people that we could probably convince to model for us. Or at least wear them around town. Maybe the locals will want to take after us eventually and you'll have a booming business.

[parce]

Good man.

( there were other things in the offering right now that they were both more focused on. and nikolai, now that he's had a taste, doesn't want this to be a one time thing.

and he doesn't think jesper wants it to be a one time thing either so they're in agreement.

and with jesper's encouragement, nikolai reaches down to get a hold of himself and starting easing himself inside of jesper. he doesn't go too slow, remembering jesper's words from earlier, but doesn't go too fast either. )

[itookashot]

Yes, finally.

( Jesper is completely ready and eager when Nikolai lines up and he moans when he starts to fill him, dropping his head back and his expression one of open pleasure the deeper he goes. It never stops being incredible to him, sex itself, never stops being powerful and special to him. It's maybe a little too slow for him but he gets it. Nikolai's doing what he wants.

The burn is delightful and he reaches up to run his fingers in Nikolai's hair, his other hand digging into his shoulder. Gray eyes are silver when he's turned on and he watches Nikolai's face.)

You feel perfect.

( He squeezes around Nikolai on the inside to tighten nicely, his arm locking around Nikolai's hip now that he's inside.)

Fuck me the way you want to. I need to know what you like.

Maybe wrap here or on yours! Yay it begins!

[itookashot]

[ Jesper has a very good mind for business and no one was more surprised than him. He didn't intend to become a merchant but he had to make money for himself and others, so he didn't have a choice. Now he has a pretty reputable business, albeit a casual street table, but this would mean something larger level. For both of them. But he doesn't see Hilda as some pretty, frivolous person, he'd laugh at the very idea. He's a good judge of character and he knows she's someone of substance.

Besides, this sounds like a lark more than anything else. (That might become something more.) So they make some colorful fun things and sell it out of his stall for a time. They'll worry about it being a business when it becomes a business. ]

I bet we could get some interest between the colors and the fact that people might want to own things made by Summoned. I swear that's why I get some good sales.

[ Jesper is not at all against using their identity as eternal outsiders to make money. It's his favorite thing to do. He grasps her hands too and lifts one of them to kiss her knuckles sweetly. ]

We'll have a booming business, darling. That's the plan

[parce]

Always so agreeable.

( well, maybe not always but right now, he's pliable and flexible (in more ways than one) and nikolai's a definite fan of this.

jesper squeezes around him and he sees stars momentarily, letting the heady feeling overtake him before he reaching for jesper's hips. )

You'll know.

( because he's definitely going to show him. he pulls out, almost the entire way, and then slides back in, firm and hard, but not overly rough.

not yet, at least. )

[itookashot]

I'm only disagreeable when it's a turn-on.

(Jesper loves sex for so many reasons but it's partly because he feels like he was made for it. The adrenaline rush, the feeling of Nikolai so close to him, hot and hard, his body on fire. It's always so good, even the times it's been bad, it's been good. But Nikolai's body is hot as hell, Jespers admiring his arms, his chest, the way his body ripples as it moves.

He takes in a breath when Nikolai pulls back, letting it out in a long groan when he plunges into his body again. It's clear that he is intentionally tightening around Nikolai the deeper he is, like he wants to clench to torture him with more sensation.)

Saints, please, Nikolai. Pound me into this bed.

[parce]

Maybe we'll try that next time.

( the whole disagreement thing. that could be fun. he's always been a fan of a good argument that ends in this way. but he valiantly pulls his mind from thinking about next time back to here and now.

he finds a rhythm easily enough, almost like they've done this before. it's firm and it's hard and it puts him deep inside jesper each time he presses in, dragging gasps and moans from his lips. )

Harder?

[itookashot]

The king would want to punish the criminal for being bad, wouldn't he?

( Jesper says as a half moan and half laugh. He appreciates Nikolai's already thinking about a next time because so is he. He loves first times but he likes tenth and twentieth times more, when people really know each other's bodies and can make each other sing. He wants to learn this perfect body, he wants to lick every inch of it. But Saints if this isn't a perfect first time anyway, the right amount of power with a sexy lead-up in public. A Jesper preference.)

Fuck, you are good.

( Jesper wraps both legs around Nikolai now to encourage more thrusting, his hands sliding down his chest to pinch his nipples and play with them as he works inside of him.)

Yeah, baby, harder. I can take it. I like it rough.

[parce]

Well, if you insist.

( jesper's not going to have to tell him twice. if he wants it rough, nikolai can give it to him rough. more than that, nikolai wants to give it to him rough.

jesper tightens his legs around nikolai's waist, making it easier for nikolai to pump in deeper and harder. he braces his hands at the sides of jesper's shoulders, hands gripping the linens and he rocks into jesper as hard as he dares, as hard a he can, letting the sounds of their moans and skin against skin fill the room. )

[itookashot]

I do. I do insist.

( He says breathlessly, so damned eager.)

Oh fuck.

( There are few things better than being truly and thoroughly fucked, from Nikolai slamming inside of him, from that perfect slap of their hips coming together with each thrust. He moans so loudly there is no question about what they're doing if anyone walks past. This is why it probably was a good idea to get to a bedroom. Jesper is too loud to have gotten away with being fucked in the bookshelves. Nikolai could've tried to stifle him, but it's much better this way.

He keeps gasping yes and pushing down at Nikolai as he slides into him, far from passive, his hand tightening in Nikolai's hair and then digging fingers into his back. His fingers on Nikolai's chest scrape down his perfect body to wrap around his own cock.)

Come in me, I want it, I want to feel you. Your majesty.

( Even now he's into the idea of it, laughing as he jerks himself off as fast as he can.)

[parce]

( if he weren't so far gone, he'd probably do something to jesper for calling him that. stop moving, stop him from jerking himself off, something.

but there's no way that he's going to stop himself from what he's doing now. he wants to come and he wants to see jesper come underneath, make a mess of the both of them in a true sign of sated satisfaction.

so, he tables the punishment for later. but he's definitely not going to be forgetting. he speeds his thrusts up, chasing his release, chasing that feeling of pleasure. he knows jesper's going to take care of himself so he focuses on getting himself off.

it surprises him when it happens, hitting him with enough force that he gasps out jesper's name. he buries himself deep inside of jesper and comes with a moan and another breathy gasp of the other man's name. )

[blackeyedprince]

[There's lot that can be said about Kell. He's impulsive, dramatic, grumpy, has way too little control over his temper. Hardly any of it would make him a coward, but he tends to run away from problems and hard topics. Usually, it's a very bad idea. Usually, it's for the better when he finally makes himself admit and spit it out what's been bothering him. With one exception, the 'what ifs' and 'could have beens'. Those he tend to overthink when he just should leave them alone. Those work better when he does not think about them. When he doesn't want to think about them. Those are the things impossible to resolve. What would he do if he were in Jesper's place? How far he would go if it was him on the outside and Rhy on the inside? Does a line that he wouldn't have crossed even exists for him?
It's better to leave those question be and don't think about it too hard. If he did, he might very much don't like the answers, and he might have been wrong anyway.]

But you weren't. You came, and you saved us. That's what matters.

[Knowing there's a darkness inside and actively looking into it are not the same things. Kell reaches up, wraps his arms around Jesper's neck, closing his eyes as he fully gives into the kiss. It's sweet and tender, two things Kell always has difficulty accepting. Always on his toes, always vigilant. But he's not like that with Jesper. He'll take everything that Jesper is willing to give him, to show him. There are no expectations between them, and it's wonderful and freeing. There's nothing to prove, nothing to be sorry about. With Jesper, he can just be.]

You and I have very different definitions of perfect it seems. I prefer flawed. Flawed does not [Kell opens his eyes, stares into Jesper's, gray like the sea, silver like the moon, and marvels how right it all feels.] scare me. You saw the whole of me and you did not run. [Too many people did. Even when all they had seen was barely a fraction.] And I did not run either.

[Underneath his grumpy exterior, the brooding, the drama, his unwillingness to trust, his tendency to see the worst in people. The darkness, the turmoil and hunger of his blood magic. Under all this, there's a person good and kind, who cares deeply. So deeply that he'd go out of his way to make an old, blind king smile, while the man's own family just waited for him to die, and Kell's family didn't make a tiniest of effort to write more than a bare sentence of useless platitudes in their letters.
Who'd risk his life for people who doesn't know him, care about him or even fear him. A person who's ambitious, but also just and sweet, and sometimes funny. A good storyteller with a keen eye for detail. Barely anyone sees this person ever. For long time, Rhy was the only who knew it existed. Now, Jesper knows too.]

I love you too.

[Everything is so different with Jesper. Kell knows that Jesper belongs with the Crows first, then Matt, and only then with him. But knowing that doesn't make him feel third in line. Not the way his adopted parents made him feel. Their love, if he can even call this love, their acceptance, was always conditional. It makes him feel a part of something. Makes him feel wanted, seen and accepted with everything he has, everything he is. Like he belongs too. It's rare and beautiful, and Kell doesn't know what to do, how to react to it, only that he wants it to last.]

[itookashot]

( Jesper's gray eyes are fixed on his face as he starts to climb toward release, hungry as he watches him lose control of anything but his movement inside of him. It's a very pretty picture and he locks it away in his mind. It's nice to bring back when he's lazy and getting himself off at another time.

He murmurs at Nikolai as he pushes harder, an array of yes in moans, and a rising demand of give it to me. Nikolai's doing exactly that, causing sensations to pound into his pleasure just as the man is doing the same, but he holds on until he feels Nikolai jerk inside and fill him. Only then does he stroke himself as fast as possible to chase after his own orgasm. He aims himself at that perfect muscular chest so he can paint it with his own come and cries out Nikolai's name.

It takes him a little while to breathe again and he uses his clean hand to stroke Nikolai's face, cupping his cheek, caressing his lips. Enjoying the view.)

Damn, you're as good at that as I fantasized about.

(Oh yeah, he definitely dreamed more than once of Nikolai slamming him into a bed.)

Stay inside me a few moments, I like feeling you.

[itookashot]

We did save you, yeah. Best as we could.

[ To be fair, they did escape on their own, but at least the Summoned on the outside were already on their way. They found the location just before it was announced so they were able to get there before anyone died in the wilderness. It would've been an extra tragedy if they escaped only to die of exposure. Instead they made it in time and he got to sweep his loved ones into his arms, breathing if badly damaged. It was scarring for everyone, the worst thing that happened to them in this land. And they probably will never feel fully safe again. ]

I would never run from you.

[ But he understands why Kell would be afraid that he would. Their first sex experience surprised Kell due to his sudden need for something more violent than he expected. He's come a long way since his confusion over why he needed to use Jesper's body that way, and it's been a pleasure to help him come to terms with it, without feeling bad about it. It would seem like it's his dark side coming out and other people probably would have struggled with his needs, not everyone loves it like Jesper does, but that's why he thinks they're well suited.

Jesper also doesn't run from anyone. Back home he did when he had good reasons to run, but other than that, he's always been obnoxiously brave. Unerringly bold. There is not much Kell could do to concern him.

Jesper also doesn't think about people in terms of who comes first. Technically, yes, the Crows are his family, Mat is his love, but he doesn't put people into categories either. He doesn't love Kell third best, he loves people with all of his heart every time. He doesn't compare because there's no reason to. His heart is made up of infinite pieces he can give away without fear. Despite being ridiculously confident in his ability to be loved, he still enjoys hearing it, and he smiles at Kell's confession. He cups his cheek gently, looking deeply into his eyes.

He uses his body to encourage Kell to move onto his back and gracefully moves on top of him, kissing him slowly. ]

We have the whole night ahead of us, darling, but I'd like to make love to you first. I want you to feel how much I adore you, and that I want to take care of you, treasure you.

[ Jesper kisses his cheeks and nuzzles at his neck. ]

I can help you feel better.