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I do.

Are you categorizing the Summoned based on looks or personality?

Both! Someone can be aesthetically pretty but ugly in personality. I'll still note the aesthetic part but give a thumbs down to them as a person.

That is fair. I don't think it's likely to be relevant, but we do not know, do we?

Add me to that list. I have been informed I'm aesthetically pleasing, but I have a terrible personality. If there are enough of us in that category, then that means if the attractiveness of the Summoned is relevant, it's likely only on looks. Or if there aren't, then we may be rounding errors.

What about aesthetically unattractive people with attractive personalities? Have you encountered many?

Why do you have a terrible personality? You seem fine.

I haven't met anyone here who isn't aesthetically attractive. Now, some people might argue because there are other species here, so they don't look human-hot, but I am fairly certain that based on their own species, they probably are equivalently hot.

I am more interested in research than people, I am too blunt and not sensitive to people's emotional states, have no care about what is appropriate conversation, and I tend to fall asleep right after intimate activities. I do not think I am objectively terrible, but if we're discussing aggregate attractiveness most people prefer bed partners who are more conventional and attentive to their needs outside of bed. I have no interest in changing.

I also find non-humans attractive and I agree that most people are aesthetically pleasing, but I do not believe that our broad tastes are standard.

Okay yeah, that does all sound like asshole behavior, at least you know it, I guess?

Garrus is a full out reptile-bird alien, but he is very attractive, also there's this new raccoon alien that I'm low-key obsessed with. Not in a sexual way, but he's cool.

Every attempt I have made to change myself to be more socially acceptable has made me miserable. Nobody else needs to, I fail to see why I should. I enjoy intimacy, but not enough to give up research, and nobody should be obligated to spend time with me when I am insufferable.

You should add Sylvain Gautier to 'aesthetically pleasing but personality not' quadrant. Or perhaps not. He got slapped a great deal in school, but I think he may be sleeping with Hilda and she would not tolerate his previous assholery, so he may have changed.

I want to meet them; I have so many questions. There aren't that many non-humans in Thorne. Is Garrus colorful like the illustrations of birds from other continents?

I've had a lot of sex with Sylvain, my friend, and he's an absolute delight. Maybe it's just a personality clash. I only rarely have them because I'm as easy going as you can get, but they happen.

No he's like blue and gray? He has an incredible voice, if you wanted to close your eyes and picture a voice that you'd like to hear on your death bed, that's the kind. Anyway he's impossible to miss if you spot him around Nocwich.

Also we've got the drawing giant shark.

I'm glad to hear that. I hope you are both having a lovely time. I can't speak personally, I was just going off the memories of the number of scenes he created with his lovers when we were younger. Or his friends about said lovers. I would not consider someone to have a bad personality because they did not get along with me: That's always going to be because of me, not the other person.

I will look for him. Does he have feathers?

There's a giant shark?!

I've made more than a few scenes myself. Sometimes we manwhores have to stick together. He's a good fellow though, he's settled down a lot here, you might be surprised.

No, he has talons and I think scales, I'm not sure about that. I've never touched him. He could have feathers under his clothes, I don't know. It'd probably be rude to ask. He's an alien called a Turian.

Yeah, you haven't seen the shark? Nanaue is his name, you may have seen him drawing pictures on the network. Not super smart but seems very sweet.

Good for him. I hope that he is happy. I never thought ill of his taking bedmates; I was more annoyed with his friends for being so obnoxious about his doing so. I don't see why having a lot of partners is a problem as long as everyone is engaging voluntarily. Sylvain himself I avoided because he puts up masks and I assumed he did not want to be known.

Scenes are undesirable - they mean someone is upset or hurt.

What is an alien?

I have not seen the shark, no, but I would like to. I've never actually seen a shark up close. I tried to jump off a boat to look at one once, but my father fished me out and then refused to take me out to sea for three years.

[He's going to ask about the feathers. Rude? What's that? There is knowledge at stake.]

He likes being known if someone wants to get to know him, but there's no pressure to do that if you two don't gel. Not everyone needs to get along.

You know, funny enough, the word alien means someone from another planet from what I'm told, and that's ALL of us, so we're all aliens.

No he's like a shark-person. He is a giant shark that walks around and can talk, he has legs, but he can also eat things whole so watch out. You must have just gotten here, yeah? Because everyone who went to the Feywilds knows the shark.

It might be different here. As I said, I am pleased that my classmates are doing well and are well received, and if they are doing better here than in Fodlan with people who care for them and in less danger - relatively and immediately - that is good. They deserve better than Fodlan.

Yes, we would all be aliens to the Abraxans. So an alien is a person from one planet that moves or visits another planet? That sounds like it would be very lonely for the alien. Unless they're like me or Bernadetta who are afraid of people. Then being alone would be fine. So perhaps it would depend on the alien? Does Garrus feel isolated? It would be difficult to be different even among those of us who are already odd.

I am new, yes. I want to meet the shark-person. I will bring him food - it is only polite. Can he swim like a shark?

From what I've heard of Fodlan, that's true. But it means you probably deserve better than it too.

You're AFRAID of people? What's so scary about people? Outside of the kind who want to kill you, obviously. Though I'm not really scared of them either.

I don't know about Garrus, you could always ask. He lives in Free Cities but keep an eye out for him in Nocwich, and the shark-man Nanaue lives in Solvunn. I assume you're in Thorne otherwise you would have already met them.

Yes. Everybody from Fodlan does. Especially those who aren't noble and have just been dragged into our mistakes and foolish ego trips.

People are difficult. When speaking to them, I have to pay attention to a lot of details and they change constantly. I do not have time to assimilate that information and therefore I misread situations. I am never entirely sure what people want from me and people act in ways I do not understand. I am never sure on how to phrase things to pacify people. In my experience, people put up with me because they think my intellect and magical knowledge are useful, but here that is not the case. People are not logical and I would not expect them to change as I myself do not want to change, but it means they are unpredictable. It feels as though I am on a boat for the first time with sailors and we sank and I am the only one who cannot swim. You are clearly charming and socially adept so I am unsurprised you do not experience these issues.

I am in Thorne. It is preferable to Fodlan.

Nah, never had any trouble with that. I was born the friendliest person in town and I am undeniably likable.

[ Not a single moment of uncertainty or self-esteem issues. ]

But my closest friend is bad with people, I wouldn't say he's afraid of them, but they exhaust him and he doesn't know what to say. Social situations are uncomfortable. He was our gang leader so he had to engage to some extent, but it's easier to be logical and get shit done as a boss. Less so as a person.

Have you met Kell over in Thorne? You two might have some things in common. He's a good lad, heart of gold, but gets nervous with social expectations. Basically just saying you're not the only one who doesn't have it easy that way. Maybe you lot should make an introvert club.

I know a few people like that. Like Claude and Hilda. I would be jealous, but your lives seem exhausting and incompatible with sleeping 16 hours a day.

Is that so? I despise being in charge of anything. It simply leads to more expectations and ways to disappoint people, and more guilt when one of my people is hurt and I was unable to prevent it.

I like Kell. I do not know if the feeling is mutual as I tried to set him on fire. I had an introvert club with a friend back home. We liked to sit in silence together. I would research and she would draw or write.

Oh yeah I don't sleep much. Don't need to. I get energized by other people and I live in the inn with a bunch of them.

Kaz is a control freak, he gets satisfaction off of telling people what to do. It's very cute of him. It helps he only cares about a very small list of people's opinions. Everyone else doesn't matter. Smart way to keep his sanity, I'd say.

Why did you try to set him on fire?

I'm always tired. Even if I sleep for 14 hours. The only time I haven't been that I remember is right after I got here. Usually I sleep during the day and take 1 or 2 naps during the evening or night hours.

I guess that works for him. He sounds like a less social version of Edelgard. She also has a lot of control issues. We argue a lot as I do not like being told what to do. Kaz is right in that other people's opinions are irrelevant unless there is some practical reason to attend to them.

I was not in my right mind. I would not normally do such a thing; I do not like hurting people.

Sounds like you might have a medical condition.

You don't like being told what to do? I would've never guessed. You seem so easy going and relaxed. (This is sarcasm, in a teasing way.) (In case that doesn't translate to text.)

I'm sure it's fine. Kell's not one to hold a grudge if you weren't in control of yourself.

None of the healers who examined me were able to find anything - I am lazy. I prefer napping to most activities. Even on the battlefield on occasion.

[He 100% has a medical condition.]

That is me: Easygoing, loyal, and completely unconcerned with the future consequences of my actions. (That is also sarcasm.) I might be more amenable if the things I were told to do were less stupid. Maybe not. Probably not.

I still owe him an apology. I should not have been near one of the creatures without making plans for things going awry. That was my responsibility and I was too arrogant.

Well maybe healers don't know everything, what about medical doctors?

What kind of stupid things were you told to do?

Oh you had one of the beast arcanas. Eh, to be fair to you, we weren't really prepared for that. It wasn't until near the end when we even figured out that it meant anything. More ignorance than arrogance, I'd say.

Of course we don't know everything. There is no distinction between the two in Fodlan, but information on some things has been repressed over the centuries. We have no information on the problems that Edelgard has, for example.

Fighting and spending my time sitting in classes and meetings when it was more efficient to learn or catch up on my own. I don't see why I should sit through a 2 hour meeting when I can be given the information in 15 minutes and then sleep for an hour and 45 minutes.

It was arrogant to assume that something unexpected would not happen when I have been informed that a lot of strange things happen here. Even some of my own magic does not function properly. I should not have assumed.

So do your healers do things like use medicinal herbs and study the biology of the body? Because in my experience sometimes it's not about just healing with magic, it could be something biologically off with you.

Yeah I hate those meetings. So I didn't go. Kaz was pretty good at just telling me what he needed so I didn't have to bother, or making it quick. Sounds like you had annoying leaders. We are criminals though, not military or whatever you guys are.

Oh no, you're human and sometimes make mistakes, something many other people did during this experience!

Yes, we do, but our studies were hampered. I am doing my best to push past the restrictions the Church has placed on us, but we do not have the tools that I think we would need, such as telescopes and microscopes. I am trying to create some back in Fodlan, but it is difficult to do while with a marching army.

Yes! Yes, they are annoying! Not just Edelgard, but also Ferdinand, especially since he's one of the ones we have to back up and explain very basic things to. We are the army of the Empire of Adrestia. It is not a very well-run Empire, as evidenced by me being in charge of anything.

Fine. I still feel culpable. If I accept your logic, why isn't the emotion leaving? It is annoying.

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