[Fucking hard and fast is wonderful. The madness they let themselves fall into is wonderful. Often their mutual hunger, raw and primal, is served best by honoring its brutal and explosive ways. When they have less time or less patience, he loves to destroy Jesper and be destroyed by him in turn. Tear into each other like wild beasts. It's unreal how well matched they are in that regard. How perfectly they can play off each others urges, wants and needs.
That's why Kell keeps coming back to Jesper like he's never done to anyone else. Most of his previous flings were short affairs, shallow and instrumental. He might have wanted to bang the other person. He might have felt genuine attraction. At times, even not only purely physical. At times, even completely sober. Not a single one could compare. Most he largely forgot. As few as they were. He definitely hadn't fantasized, in the slow hours of the day, about getting railed withing the inch of his life by any of them. Men or women, doesn't matter. Not even about fucking them into the ground. It's Jesper who has uncovered this side of him.
And Jesper who gets to reap the benefits of finding out that Kell loves when he fucks him long and deep and thorough. Completely overwhelm him, flood all his senses. Like he's a sandy cliff slowly devoured by the sea. Jesper is the sea, moving in and out of him fast and deep only to slow down when Kell can all but taste the release coming. Kell hooks his legs around him, ankles crossed, pushing his hips upward. All to get Jesper to hit him at a better angle, to pull him deeper, to keep him in longer. He slows his breath intentionally, matching it to the rhythm of Jesper's thrusts. Long inhale in his way in, exhale when he pulls out.
Kell might want to drag it ever slightly longer, but even Antari stamina has limits. He's already shaking, euphoric and lightheaded, muscles trembling from the strain, when Jesper kisses him sweetly on the cheek. Then gives Kell just what he asked for, he takes his breath away. Wave after wave of bone-deep, blinding ecstasy, floodgates open, it just keeps going. It's that last thrust when Jesper's comes inside of him, finally pushes Kell over the edge too. It goes and goes, almost without an end.
But an end comes leaving Kell weak and drained. Even breathing feels like too much of a challenge. The world slowly coming into focus. Kell suddenly feels very aware of Jesper's weight on his, warm and comforting. Crumpled sheets under his bare back. Solid support of the mattress. A pile of his own clothes at the edge of his vision. Throbbing of his muscles still stretched around Jesper's now limp cock. Kell moans. He feels too weak to breath, to lift a single finger, and yet he has to swallow hard when he becomes aware of how Jesper still fills him. And how he'd like to fill him in turn now. How he'd like to throw him on bed and fuck him senseless. Pity he has no strength left to do it. It would have been so wonderful.]
Saints, it was incredible.
[He has enough strength to ramble.]
I love you, Jesper. You're always so good for me.
[As he slowly comes back to his senses, Kell realizes one small detail that escaped his notice before. He laughs. This is extra even for them.]
I'm afraid we might get asked to pay extra for the noise. Look. [He starts kissing Jesper wherever he can reach without moving too much.] You fucked me so well, we moved the whole bed. [He chuckles.] At least the windows are intact. [Unlike with some other people.] I love you. I love you so much.
[ Kell's given so much of himself today, opened up his heart and shared his feelings, no matter how difficult they are. He's trusted Jesper with more than his body. And Jesper is feeling very emotional about that. The vulnerability means something to him, and it is love, pure and simple. It is what he feels and what he tries to show as he takes Kell and he can see it sinking in. All of their sex is great, but this is special. And while they can go wild in the Horizon, have sex over and over again in every possible way they feel like, Jesper does like to have it be real whenever they can. It might be messier and require more time to build up the strength again, but it's intimate.
Jesper stays in him even after they've both come, much as he requests on the other end, so he can rest deep inside him and kiss him affectionately. He likes a few seconds of holding onto that closeness, pressing a kiss to each of his cheeks, and only after catching his breath does he pull out. Jesper moves to the side of Kell and immediately curls up right against him, draping an arm over him, pulling him close. Still wanting them to be touching in as many places as possible. It doesn't matter to him they're sticky and spent. It won't be the last time.
He laughs at the reference to the noise and kisses Kell's forehead, running fingers through his bright hair. ]
I have the money. [ Jesper's actually pretty wealthy. Not to the highest level, but enough to keep four people (the Crows) comfortable. ] Wait until the morning when you'll be in me, we could break the bed if we're not careful.
[ Jesper assumes they can have their second bout after some sleep and rest, there's no hurry, they have each other's bodies to explore. But Kell is quite the stallion in the bedroom and this was nothing compared to the noises he gets out of Jesper's mouth. And Jesper never censors himself. He'll be as loud as he damn well wants to. Sorry everyone else. ]
I actually did think I'd love you after our first time in the bedroom. So it's not a surprise to me.
[Kell soaks all the affection that Jesper showers him with. It brings him gently down from what would otherwise be a draining crash. Instead, he's softly sinking into relaxed state, the heat of his ravenous desire slowly dissipating, dissolved by Jesper's kisses and caresses. Just as Jesper pulls out and rolls to his side, Kell is already seeking contact again; setting comfortably under his arm.
He groans at the mention of what else they can do to the bed. This is no empty joke, but a real threat. Kell knows how destructively excited he can be when he gets his hands on Jesper. Hands, lips, teeth, dick. Even still sweetly curled against Jesper, Kell feels the first flash of need. Saints, how much he wants him! This man drives him the most pleasant kind of crazy. He purrs against Jesper's skin.]
Then I'm lucky that you do, because I don't.
[Kell chuckles. When he's not furious and frustrated, he finds his forever precarious financial situation ironic to the point of funny. He's grown as a prince for fucks sake! Money was never issue for him. It is so annoying he has to remember that he doesn't have near infinite means here. When he's fed with being mad he can make himself see it as hilarious. For the sheer contrast with the rest of his life.
So it's quite surprising that relying on Jesper this evening feels so hot. Being provided for is completely new for him. New and unexpectedly exciting.]
You have no idea how much it costs to publish a book. Especially, one with so much fucking in it as mine.
Speaking of fucking-- [Kell begrudgingly resigns to reality that they can't go wild as they do in Horizon. They need rest, they need break and they need sleep. But it's worth it. It always is. Kell shifts slightly so he can remain plastered against Jesper with every inch of his skin, but he can also growl a promise into his ear.] I am going to fuck you so hard, we might as well break this bed in the morning.
[This is were they differ. Kell got totally blindsided by his feelings for Jesper. For how long he tried to avoid putting a name to them while he already has been hopelessly smitten. But there are reasons for his irrational behavior. For his blindness, for his denial. Daring to love has never ended good for him. Those two times that he could not fight it.]
It was to me. [Kell closes his eyes. It's easier like that. When nothing he sees distracts him, when he feels Jesper's warmth, hears his breath, the weight of his arms around him. He feels safe.] I don't really have feelings for people. Not the good ones. I ever fell in love twice in my life before. Neither felt like what I feel for you. How I feel with you. It's sex, yes, sex is great. I have no words to describe how much I want you. There's not a moment when I don't want to drag you to some secluded place and just fuck. Saints, I cannot count how many times I was daydreaming about fucking you while I should be working or studying. But it's not all. It would have been so easy if it was just sex.
[Kell opens his eyes, staring right at Jesper.]
It's not just sex. I understand nothing of this. I don't understand why I could just sit in the room with you, not even touching, just sharing the same space, and it would already make me happy. Fuck, knowing you exist somewhere there, even when there are two countries between us, it already makes me happy. How crazy is that?
Pretty sure none of you lot are even allowed to be wealthy. Jaskier's outright rich at this point, and someday I will be too.
[ Jesper will always seek fortune. He likes money, he likes spending it, but there also is security in it. He grew up on a farm, most of their currency was in trade or enough to get by. They always had food (because he hunted) and their clothes were nice (because he mended them) so he wouldn't call them poor, but nothing like once he got to Ketterdam and had money to burn. It's amazing how wealthy someone can get when they don't gamble all their money away! Imagine that!
Some of his funds are starting to break even solely because he and Hilda will be beginning a business and starting from the ground up can be hard, but the two of them are incredibly street savvy and skilled. They'll be making money on that before long.
He smiles indulgently and leans in when Kell whispers that they're going to have bed-breaking sex in the morning, and he kisses him sweetly. ]
Deal, sweetheart.
[ He can pay for a bed! He can also fix a bed without needing to pay for it, better than new. Jesper has now upgraded an inn so he's quite good at all of this. They maybe can't have sex as constant as in the Horizon but he's content to let them enjoy it when they want to and not because of the desperation of keep going, keep going, keep going. Those are both good experiences, he has a mood for each, and his mood is enjoying this right now. Jesper lets his hand wander over Kell's body, down his shoulder and side, curving around to give his ass a nice little squeeze. ]
Love feels different with each person because it is different. The relationship is singular.
[ Jesper doesn't feel the same way with any of his lovers, they're each a part of his heart separately, because their wants and needs change too. It's hard for him to explain to people who don't see it the way he does, because it's just a feeling. His heart is in many pieces but it's whole too.
He laughs when Kell gets super horny there for a moment, leaning over to kiss his shoulder affectionately. Listen, he's hot as fuck, he knows that. The one thing no one can ever doubt about him is how good he is in bed. Kell is also great in bed, they practically set themselves on fire every time. He knows that Kell desires him insanely and it's very satisfying, he likes being body worshipped. It makes him into a pampered pet in many ways. ]
It's love, baby. It's supposed to be crazy and unexplainable and precious.
[ Jesper may not know some things, but this, this he knows. He lets his fingers brush through Kell's hair, curling around his jaw, caressing his cheekbone with his thumb. Their eyes fix on each other and his are warm, content, pleased. ]
You don't need to understand, just feel it, and be happy.
[ He kisses him soundly. ]
Now let's get some sleep so you can pound me into this mattress fully rested, yeah?
[Just letting himself feel things without instantly jumping to dissecting it, is always a challenge for Kell. It is significantly easier now when the heat of pleasure transforms into drowsiness. A very nice kind of drowsiness. ]
Sounds like a great plan. I like it.
[That's the last thing he says before drifting into sleep.]
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That's why Kell keeps coming back to Jesper like he's never done to anyone else. Most of his previous flings were short affairs, shallow and instrumental. He might have wanted to bang the other person. He might have felt genuine attraction. At times, even not only purely physical. At times, even completely sober. Not a single one could compare. Most he largely forgot. As few as they were. He definitely hadn't fantasized, in the slow hours of the day, about getting railed withing the inch of his life by any of them. Men or women, doesn't matter. Not even about fucking them into the ground. It's Jesper who has uncovered this side of him.
And Jesper who gets to reap the benefits of finding out that Kell loves when he fucks him long and deep and thorough. Completely overwhelm him, flood all his senses. Like he's a sandy cliff slowly devoured by the sea. Jesper is the sea, moving in and out of him fast and deep only to slow down when Kell can all but taste the release coming. Kell hooks his legs around him, ankles crossed, pushing his hips upward. All to get Jesper to hit him at a better angle, to pull him deeper, to keep him in longer. He slows his breath intentionally, matching it to the rhythm of Jesper's thrusts. Long inhale in his way in, exhale when he pulls out.
Kell might want to drag it ever slightly longer, but even Antari stamina has limits. He's already shaking, euphoric and lightheaded, muscles trembling from the strain, when Jesper kisses him sweetly on the cheek. Then gives Kell just what he asked for, he takes his breath away. Wave after wave of bone-deep, blinding ecstasy, floodgates open, it just keeps going. It's that last thrust when Jesper's comes inside of him, finally pushes Kell over the edge too. It goes and goes, almost without an end.
But an end comes leaving Kell weak and drained. Even breathing feels like too much of a challenge. The world slowly coming into focus. Kell suddenly feels very aware of Jesper's weight on his, warm and comforting. Crumpled sheets under his bare back. Solid support of the mattress. A pile of his own clothes at the edge of his vision. Throbbing of his muscles still stretched around Jesper's now limp cock. Kell moans. He feels too weak to breath, to lift a single finger, and yet he has to swallow hard when he becomes aware of how Jesper still fills him. And how he'd like to fill him in turn now. How he'd like to throw him on bed and fuck him senseless. Pity he has no strength left to do it. It would have been so wonderful.]
Saints, it was incredible.
[He has enough strength to ramble.]
I love you, Jesper. You're always so good for me.
[As he slowly comes back to his senses, Kell realizes one small detail that escaped his notice before. He laughs. This is extra even for them.]
I'm afraid we might get asked to pay extra for the noise. Look. [He starts kissing Jesper wherever he can reach without moving too much.] You fucked me so well, we moved the whole bed. [He chuckles.] At least the windows are intact. [Unlike with some other people.] I love you. I love you so much.
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Jesper stays in him even after they've both come, much as he requests on the other end, so he can rest deep inside him and kiss him affectionately. He likes a few seconds of holding onto that closeness, pressing a kiss to each of his cheeks, and only after catching his breath does he pull out. Jesper moves to the side of Kell and immediately curls up right against him, draping an arm over him, pulling him close. Still wanting them to be touching in as many places as possible. It doesn't matter to him they're sticky and spent. It won't be the last time.
He laughs at the reference to the noise and kisses Kell's forehead, running fingers through his bright hair. ]
I have the money. [ Jesper's actually pretty wealthy. Not to the highest level, but enough to keep four people (the Crows) comfortable. ] Wait until the morning when you'll be in me, we could break the bed if we're not careful.
[ Jesper assumes they can have their second bout after some sleep and rest, there's no hurry, they have each other's bodies to explore. But Kell is quite the stallion in the bedroom and this was nothing compared to the noises he gets out of Jesper's mouth. And Jesper never censors himself. He'll be as loud as he damn well wants to. Sorry everyone else. ]
I actually did think I'd love you after our first time in the bedroom. So it's not a surprise to me.
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He groans at the mention of what else they can do to the bed. This is no empty joke, but a real threat. Kell knows how destructively excited he can be when he gets his hands on Jesper. Hands, lips, teeth, dick. Even still sweetly curled against Jesper, Kell feels the first flash of need. Saints, how much he wants him! This man drives him the most pleasant kind of crazy. He purrs against Jesper's skin.]
Then I'm lucky that you do, because I don't.
[Kell chuckles. When he's not furious and frustrated, he finds his forever precarious financial situation ironic to the point of funny. He's grown as a prince for fucks sake! Money was never issue for him. It is so annoying he has to remember that he doesn't have near infinite means here. When he's fed with being mad he can make himself see it as hilarious. For the sheer contrast with the rest of his life.
So it's quite surprising that relying on Jesper this evening feels so hot. Being provided for is completely new for him. New and unexpectedly exciting.]
You have no idea how much it costs to publish a book. Especially, one with so much fucking in it as mine.
Speaking of fucking-- [Kell begrudgingly resigns to reality that they can't go wild as they do in Horizon. They need rest, they need break and they need sleep. But it's worth it. It always is. Kell shifts slightly so he can remain plastered against Jesper with every inch of his skin, but he can also growl a promise into his ear.] I am going to fuck you so hard, we might as well break this bed in the morning.
[This is were they differ. Kell got totally blindsided by his feelings for Jesper. For how long he tried to avoid putting a name to them while he already has been hopelessly smitten. But there are reasons for his irrational behavior. For his blindness, for his denial. Daring to love has never ended good for him. Those two times that he could not fight it.]
It was to me. [Kell closes his eyes. It's easier like that. When nothing he sees distracts him, when he feels Jesper's warmth, hears his breath, the weight of his arms around him. He feels safe.] I don't really have feelings for people. Not the good ones. I ever fell in love twice in my life before. Neither felt like what I feel for you. How I feel with you. It's sex, yes, sex is great. I have no words to describe how much I want you. There's not a moment when I don't want to drag you to some secluded place and just fuck. Saints, I cannot count how many times I was daydreaming about fucking you while I should be working or studying. But it's not all. It would have been so easy if it was just sex.
[Kell opens his eyes, staring right at Jesper.]
It's not just sex. I understand nothing of this. I don't understand why I could just sit in the room with you, not even touching, just sharing the same space, and it would already make me happy. Fuck, knowing you exist somewhere there, even when there are two countries between us, it already makes me happy. How crazy is that?
We can wrap here or on yours!
[ Jesper will always seek fortune. He likes money, he likes spending it, but there also is security in it. He grew up on a farm, most of their currency was in trade or enough to get by. They always had food (because he hunted) and their clothes were nice (because he mended them) so he wouldn't call them poor, but nothing like once he got to Ketterdam and had money to burn. It's amazing how wealthy someone can get when they don't gamble all their money away! Imagine that!
Some of his funds are starting to break even solely because he and Hilda will be beginning a business and starting from the ground up can be hard, but the two of them are incredibly street savvy and skilled. They'll be making money on that before long.
He smiles indulgently and leans in when Kell whispers that they're going to have bed-breaking sex in the morning, and he kisses him sweetly. ]
Deal, sweetheart.
[ He can pay for a bed! He can also fix a bed without needing to pay for it, better than new. Jesper has now upgraded an inn so he's quite good at all of this. They maybe can't have sex as constant as in the Horizon but he's content to let them enjoy it when they want to and not because of the desperation of keep going, keep going, keep going. Those are both good experiences, he has a mood for each, and his mood is enjoying this right now. Jesper lets his hand wander over Kell's body, down his shoulder and side, curving around to give his ass a nice little squeeze. ]
Love feels different with each person because it is different. The relationship is singular.
[ Jesper doesn't feel the same way with any of his lovers, they're each a part of his heart separately, because their wants and needs change too. It's hard for him to explain to people who don't see it the way he does, because it's just a feeling. His heart is in many pieces but it's whole too.
He laughs when Kell gets super horny there for a moment, leaning over to kiss his shoulder affectionately. Listen, he's hot as fuck, he knows that. The one thing no one can ever doubt about him is how good he is in bed. Kell is also great in bed, they practically set themselves on fire every time. He knows that Kell desires him insanely and it's very satisfying, he likes being body worshipped. It makes him into a pampered pet in many ways. ]
It's love, baby. It's supposed to be crazy and unexplainable and precious.
[ Jesper may not know some things, but this, this he knows. He lets his fingers brush through Kell's hair, curling around his jaw, caressing his cheekbone with his thumb. Their eyes fix on each other and his are warm, content, pleased. ]
You don't need to understand, just feel it, and be happy.
[ He kisses him soundly. ]
Now let's get some sleep so you can pound me into this mattress fully rested, yeah?
then it's a wrap :)
Sounds like a great plan. I like it.
[That's the last thing he says before drifting into sleep.]