[Kell lets off a sharp, joyless laugh. More a bark than a laugh really.]
That would be my parents, or rather Rhy's parents. Not him, though. Never him. [He huffs, the tension in his face easing into a weak smile.] He'd kick me for saying what I just did.
[And he will be so disappointed. Kell ended becoming what he was supposed to be not because their parents made him. It only happened because Rhy treated him differently. He thought them every step of the way. Kell learned to fight it too. Sometimes too much and in stupid ways. It stings that after all this time, it's their words and their expectations he defaults to under stress.
Kell feels beyond lucky that now he has Jesper to call him out on this too. Keep him in check, but also kiss him, call him baby and sweet. So kind and gentle. It's almost painful how good it feels to be treated like that. Like something precious, worthy of protection and care. Kell had never dared to expect that anyone else other than Rhy will ever see him this way. He told himself he was fine with the future when no one ever did.
Then came Jesper Fahey to utterly shatter his limited worldview. With his willingness to accept everything about Kell, even the things Kell did not accept about himself. Show him things he didn't know about himself. And now this.
Kell smiles. It's like weight has dropped from his chest, like he was drowning, but can Jesper has dragged him up to the surface and he can breath again. ]
I bet your other lovers tell you this all the time, but you are a treasure, Jesper Fahey. [He leans in kissing Jesper back, eyes closed, lips parted in wordless invitation. Both the blue and the black eyes fixed on Jesper when he finally pulls away.] I have no idea what I did to deserve you, but I feel stupidly lucky that I do. I mean it. Meeting you was the best thing that happened to me here.
And you're right, I thought I was fine, but I guess I'm still a bit broken after it.
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Date: 2023-10-17 01:55 pm (UTC)That would be my parents, or rather Rhy's parents. Not him, though. Never him. [He huffs, the tension in his face easing into a weak smile.] He'd kick me for saying what I just did.
[And he will be so disappointed. Kell ended becoming what he was supposed to be not because their parents made him. It only happened because Rhy treated him differently. He thought them every step of the way. Kell learned to fight it too. Sometimes too much and in stupid ways. It stings that after all this time, it's their words and their expectations he defaults to under stress.
Kell feels beyond lucky that now he has Jesper to call him out on this too. Keep him in check, but also kiss him, call him baby and sweet. So kind and gentle. It's almost painful how good it feels to be treated like that. Like something precious, worthy of protection and care. Kell had never dared to expect that anyone else other than Rhy will ever see him this way. He told himself he was fine with the future when no one ever did.
Then came Jesper Fahey to utterly shatter his limited worldview. With his willingness to accept everything about Kell, even the things Kell did not accept about himself. Show him things he didn't know about himself. And now this.
Kell smiles. It's like weight has dropped from his chest, like he was drowning, but can Jesper has dragged him up to the surface and he can breath again. ]
I bet your other lovers tell you this all the time, but you are a treasure, Jesper Fahey. [He leans in kissing Jesper back, eyes closed, lips parted in wordless invitation. Both the blue and the black eyes fixed on Jesper when he finally pulls away.] I have no idea what I did to deserve you, but I feel stupidly lucky that I do. I mean it. Meeting you was the best thing that happened to me here.
And you're right, I thought I was fine, but I guess I'm still a bit broken after it.