[ Jesper is observant so he's paying close attention to Kell, and he sees all the markers of something going wrong. Multiple things being wrong. He is an excellent listener so he's not concerned about getting to the bottom of it, it's more a matter of getting them out of public so Kell doesn't have to try and pretend. He can try to pretend in private, but it won't work, and Jesper would call him out on it anyway.
He doesn't sit next to Kell, he pulls up one of the chairs there so he can sit across from him instead, so he can look at his face while he talks more clearly. Jesper scoots it in very close though, so it's easy for him to reach out and run fingers through Kell's hair, just be there for him, so he knows he can lean in and get comfort if he needs to.
Kell sounds a lot like Jesper himself there for a moment, only with the protection part. He's the protector himself, and when almost everyone he loved was captured, he went a little crazy. He takes one of Kell's shaking hands and holds it. ]
This is something I've had to accept myself, love, that the reality is we can't protect everyone we love at all times. It's impossible. All we can do is the best we can in the moment. Which isn't enough, I know, but it has to be something.
[ Jesper does understand where this is all coming from. If it's not specifically the aftermath of the kidnapping, they've had plenty of problems since. Abraxas is the example of when it rains, it pours, and they're all mostly forced to keep accepting what is happening to them. ]
I think you just never let yourself deal with the Pit, Kell. Knowing you, you were probably worried about everyone else but yourself, and you can't help other people if you don't help yourself.
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He doesn't sit next to Kell, he pulls up one of the chairs there so he can sit across from him instead, so he can look at his face while he talks more clearly. Jesper scoots it in very close though, so it's easy for him to reach out and run fingers through Kell's hair, just be there for him, so he knows he can lean in and get comfort if he needs to.
Kell sounds a lot like Jesper himself there for a moment, only with the protection part. He's the protector himself, and when almost everyone he loved was captured, he went a little crazy. He takes one of Kell's shaking hands and holds it. ]
This is something I've had to accept myself, love, that the reality is we can't protect everyone we love at all times. It's impossible. All we can do is the best we can in the moment. Which isn't enough, I know, but it has to be something.
[ Jesper does understand where this is all coming from. If it's not specifically the aftermath of the kidnapping, they've had plenty of problems since. Abraxas is the example of when it rains, it pours, and they're all mostly forced to keep accepting what is happening to them. ]
I think you just never let yourself deal with the Pit, Kell. Knowing you, you were probably worried about everyone else but yourself, and you can't help other people if you don't help yourself.